Pain and Pleasure

[melbender]

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Strong and dominant with a hidden sadistic side. He’s looking for someone who can handle him and take the pain among the pleasure.

She’s looking to make ends meet, struggling to keep a roof over her head, working two jobs and raising her siblings, she finally loses all self worth and signs up to a sugar daddy dating site, thinking it couldn’t be that bad?

Can they both come to an arrangement to keep each other happy?

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. “Like a ass, you deserve better, you know but I’m going to try, really try.” I leaned over and kissed her. “But first we both need to eat you want to go on the deck or eat right here.”

[melbender]

It made me happy that he was going to try. “You know, how about we eat I’m bed and then take a bath, it looks nice outside so after we could lay naked wrapped in a sheet on the hammock and just do nothing. I just want to be close to you today.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. “We will do whatever you want to do.” I kissed her head and smiled. “It May take sometime time sage but I’m trying, just don’t tell me what I want when it comes to you, I may not show it but I care and I do want you for you.”

[melbender]

“I know, I’m just worried you only want this baby and not me.” I wanted him fully, and I just wished he felt the same. “Anyway, there is food calling my name and I am hungry.” I yawned covering my mouth. “Thankyou for breakfast.”

[Ashwag24]

I grabbed her hand before she could reach the breakfast. “Sage I want you, not just the baby I promise you that, I want not only you but your siblings our baby and you.” I don’t know how else I can tell her this, I can’t say I love you not yet but I can tell her I want her. I can show her when we fuck to hasn’t she understood this yet.

[melbender]

“Good, because I want you too.” I leant forwards and kissed him softly. “You make my heart happy, I’ve never felt it before but you do.” I said honestly and grinned a little. “Even when you flip out over nothing.”

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head. “Those little things must mean something if they make me flip out as you say.” I winked. I knew she didn’t understand and that was my fault but she can’t expect me to explain everything he’ll i already told her about my family for the most part

[melbender]

“Must be your age.” I teased back, and leant closer as I ducked some maple syrup from my finger. “So, why aren’t you working? You’re usually always working.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled “I am taking a small holiday with my girl you got a problem with that take it up with her, she can be feisty and mean sometimes so watch out.” I smirked and she dropped her jaw not expecting me to joke with her.

[melbender]

“You’re something else you know,” I really liked being called his girl. “She sounds amazing though.” I laughed. I ate, and then wish I hadn’t eaten as I felt queasy. “Morning sickness has hit.” I laid down placing a hand over my stomach. “I’m so full.”

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. “Is there anything we can do about the morning sickness should I call the doctor?” I asked not sure what I was suppose to do. “And my girl is super amazing she puts up with me!” I winked.

[melbender]

“Morning sickness is normal. I guess we should take that as a good sign he or she is doing well and growing.” I stretched out, running my hand up his chest “want a bath with me?”

[Ashwag24]

I smirked. “How about in the outside bah.” If was nice oh and I may do ya some good. “We can lay and ea in the hammock.” I kissed her and then moved to place small kisses on her belly.

[melbender]

“Do you think it will be a boy or a girl?” I asked running my fingers through his hair. “It’s surreal. To think we’re going to be parents, I’m terrified but strangely happy.”

[Ashwag24]

I shrugged. “I’m not sure, I feel like the baby is a girl. For some reason I don’t know. I’m deathly terrified babe, I know you’ll be the perfect mum though. The way you are with your siblings I just know, but I’m terrified on how I will be.” What if I sucked I thought.

[melbender]

“Yes I imagine you’ll be the hot hearted father who has no patience and beats the child when he or she does something wrong.” I rolled my eyes and then laughed “you and I will learn together, there’s no wrong or right way to parent. We just give all the love we can, and I’m going to make sure it doesn’t have the childhood either of us had growing up.”

[Ashwag24]

I was worried she really thought that. Then she said the rest and I smiled. “I’m going to need you to help me a lot. I don’t have a clue.” I looked at her. “When Lisa had Brody I wasn’t there because I was so mad about her telling me she was sleeing around and he probably wasn’t mine. It hurt so I punished the boy by not being around. I was so angry and I shouldn’t have been at Brody, I was a idiot sage I still am most of the time.” I was opening up little by little I hope she can see this.

[melbender]

“We’re all idiots now and then, you can’t spend your life punishing yourself for something like that. You need to move on and live life” I leant over takin his hand. “Everything you wish you could have done or been, you can do that with this baby.”

[Ashwag24]

I nodded but it hurt that I didn’t save Brody I could of even if he wasn’t mine he didn’t deserve that. “Thank you sage it means a lot to me, maybe one day you can go and meet Brody, I go to his grave a lot hoping he will forgive me.” It sucked I was the only one to go. “I never found out if he was mine either. I couldn’t, I just wanted to believe he was.”

[melbender]

“We can go when we’re back home.” I didn’t know what else to say. “So are we living with you at the house? Coz it’s goung to need a lot of baby proofing.”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. “I’m Yes your leaving there it’s your home to unless you don’t like it we can find another but what do you mean baby proofing the house? What does that intell?” I was confused by that, “so we put bars up or something?”

[melbender]

“No” I laughed “just make some changes, I mean there’s a lot of glass and sharp edges, a baby will crawl over to your liquor display and you’ll scream then” I wi Jed. “Maybe make a few changes, more homey and not so bachelor like. Those windows will have finger prints all over them.”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. “Are you serious?” She started back at me. “Shit your totally serious!” I groaned and threw my head back. “My house is not going to work we will have to move there is to much to be done oh my god your siblings what if that get into the liquor?”

[melbender]

I laughed “they won’t. But we don’t have to move, it’s your home. Maybe we just live seperately, I mean you shouldn’t have to transform your house.” I

[Ashwag24]

I started at her. “You don’t want to live with me?” It hurt I mean I know I have my ways and she don’t like some of them but I told her I would work on it. Fuck can I make this work knowing she wants so much more even though she doesn’t really say it. I didn’t like that she wanted to live separate or even suggested it. “I’d rather find a home that’s ours than live separate sage.”

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