Wish she was mine.

[Ashwag24]

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I’m getting married! But not to him. My best friend who I have loved since I was 5, yeah I know some don’t believe that but it’s true. I remember falling off my bike and my brother laughing at me, but our new neighbor came to my rescue. He was so cute back then. I knew we would be close friends from then on. Even my twin brother liked him. But now back to I’m getting married! Yes I went away for college not to were my brother and best friend went, but is where I found my future husband we I’ll be getting married to in 6 months!

I got the invite that tore my heart into pieces. She was getting married but she wasn’t marrying me like I always hoped she would. I remember the almost kiss. I was so nervous but I wanted to kiss her so bad but her brother freaking ruined that chance. Then she was gone off to a different state to start college on her own. Now she is back and getting married.


Name: Meadow May Fransico
Age 26
Bio: outgoing lovable intelligent. Is a nurse and loves to help people.
Looks: still thinking about it. Will update or send.

[Ashwag24]

I laughed. “Jake I’m saying sorry to my brother, I’m sure you told him everything you know and he must be disappointed in me so much.” I sighed and leaned my head on Jake and cried. “Please promise you won’t aay anything to mum!”

[melbender]

“Only if you stop crying.”’ I rubbed her back, kissing the top of her head. “Look I’m going to give you two some space. I’ll be outside when you’re ready.” I looked at them both and left

[Ashwag24]

I looked over and sighed. “Well?” I said knowing he would have some questions. I didn’t really want to answer any right now but I had to.

[melbender]

“Do you really love him? I mean he’s a good guy meadow and doesn’t deserve all this shit on him if you’re just going to run back to that asshole again.” He said straight up

[Ashwag24]

I looked at him. “Are you serious right now! Of course I’ve loved him for a long time. I know you love him too I’m sorry.” I said “but I won’t go back to the asshole who did that shit to me. I’m so sorry to disappoint you just don’t say anything to mum yet okay.” I was upset I knew he would hate me but he couldn’t hate Jake. “And hate me all you want but not him he doesn’t deserve that.”

[melbender]

“I don’t hate him or blame him.” He said standing up. “I feel sorry for him, you’re immature meadow. How can you trap him like this and force him into something.” Sighing he shook his head “if you don’t tell mum then I will because she doesn’t deserve to be kept out from something like this, and that shows me that you are too childish. Think about that for a bit.” He snapped angrily and walked off, he was hurt that he would never love him like he loved his sister

[Ashwag24]

I was sad. My brother hated me. I went into jakes room and looked myself in there hating myself for loving him and hating myself more for trapping him my brother is right I’m so stupid and immature. I didn’t deserve to be happy I didn’t deserve to be with Jake. I didn’t deserve his child.

[melbender]

I walked inside to the back door when I noticed she wasn’t out helping when she said she was eager to help feed the animals “meadow” I called out “I’m about to feed the baby chickens, do you want to come and see them?”

[Ashwag24]

I laid there shaking boy did I want to see them but I couldn’t. I laid there crying. I couldn’t answer him in fear of my brother saying I was too needy. I know he was jealous but I didn’t know to this extreme.

[melbender]

“She’s asleep.” Her brother appeared smiling. “Anyway best leave her to rest, I’ll come check out these animals and see what the farm looks like, it’s been awhile since I’ve been here.” He beamer shoving some shoes on. “Oh” I couldn’t help the disappointment. “Umm alright, I’ll come check on her in a bit then I guess.”

[Ashwag24]

Staying locked up in his room all day sucked. I still had no clue what to do. I did manage to call and get a doctors appointment which I was happy for. I was slightly disappointed that Jake hadnt come in again since this morning. Sighing I stood and looked at myself in his mirror hating how I looked. I looked at my hair wanting to chop it off I looked at myself. I couldn’t take it anymore. I screamed st the top of my lungs because I hurt so bad. “I shouldn’t have came here. I’m hurting everyone”

[melbender]

“Hey I’ll order pizza then.” I said to the guys making my way back inside the house. I walked into the bedroom and seen her up “oh hey sleeping beauty, how are you feeling?”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at him. “I wasn’t sleeping.” I say and just don’t know what to do. “Is my brother still here?” If so I had to leave I was hungry and just didn’t want to be around him.

[melbender]

“Oh I thought you were” I was confused. “Umm well, want to come see the baby chicks? I’ve ordered some pizza for lunch which should be here soon.”

[Ashwag24]

I shrugged “is he still here? Cause if he is maybe I should go or just stay in here.” I said not looking at him. I was just so angry with myself.

[melbender]

“Umm what?” That made no sense at all. “What’s wrong? It’s just your brother, I’m sure he isn’t going to mind you being here too.” We’ve all been close growing up so I didn’t know what’s changed. “You’re not leaving. You promised me you wouldn’t.”

[Ashwag24]

I sighed and sat down. “Everything has changed Jake! My brother hates me, says I ruined your life by being immature and trapping you with a kid. That I don’t deserve you. And I don’t. But with him here I don’t want to make it harder on the both of you, I’m not leaving leaving just maybe go to a friends house till he leaves I just do t want to cause any issues with you two and it’s obviously I am because he loves you more than he loves me. I’m so sorry I begged you to make love to me that night I’m sorry I dragged you into this mess. But I’m not sorry I love you.”

[melbender]

She was talking fast as I pulled her to me and covered her mouth with my hand “first of all stop talking and listen to me. If your brother said those things, then he’s wrong and a dickhead. None of it is true. We fucked and I didn’t use a condom, I’m owning up to my actions and he doesn’t get to say anything about that. Secondly, your brother has his own place so he can leave. You’re staying here like I said in the first place. Got it?”

[Ashwag24]

I nodded “but if we do this we may ruin your friendship with him and I don’t want that.  Jake my brother hates me.  I’m a disgrace to him he doesn’t care that I don’t as hurt or anything all he cares about is you, he thinks I’ll hurt you.  But he doesn’t know I already have.  I’m not worthy of this.”  I sighed.  “If I wasn’t pregnant I would be dead.”  I stated knowing that I would be but most likely not by Kevin but by my own hand.  I hated living right now.

[melbender]

I sat on the edge of the bed and looked up at her “do you not want to be here? Your brother has his own issues he needs to sort out. None of us are perfect and he can’t blame you Meadow, please don’t talk about yourself this way. You’re none of those things.”

[Ashwag24]

I looked up at him. “Of course I’ve only really ever wanted to be here with you. Just not under these circumstances, you can’t sit there and tell you didn’t wirh the same.” I touched his cheek. “I want to be happy, I want to be pregnant just I wish we had the chance to do this right maybe then my brother wouldn’t hate me so much. It’s just hard you know.”

[melbender]

“Who says I’m not happy? Because I’ve been a mess since you left, and I am fucking happy you’re here and pregnant. Stop listening to your brother. Things were good until he came here.” I don’t know what’s changed

[Ashwag24]

“Your happy, and happy I’m pregnant?” I was a little lost. How could he be. “Ummm I made a appointment for Friday. Would you come with me?”

[melbender]

“I’d be gutted if you didn’t want me there. Of course I’m going to be there, and at all your other appointments too. I won’t miss them.” I promised pulling her closely. “Just focus on us, not your brother.”

[Ashwag24]

I nodded. “Jake have you thought about if this child isn’t ours?” I needed to know what he thought. Would he still want me here or would he be pissed and disgusted as well.

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