Real thing! (Mel and I)

[Ashwag24]

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I smiled that's my girl. "So how about this weekend I have a opening if you'd like if not then it would have to be in two months." Tony said and I looked at her and said. "It's up to you?" Two months thought was a long time to wait but this coming weekend was soon really soon.

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head I can't believe this they really liked being with their mum now. I looked up at Lisa and she nodded as if saying that was fine but when I looked at em I saw the hurt. "Hey sweetheart do you um mind if they take me home?"

[melbender]

Of course I minded. My throat felt closed up as I managed a smile the best I could, whispering "of course they can." As i was afraid I could cry any moment. Leaning over, I kissed his cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow when you're dropped off." I doubt he even remembered we were engaged. I walked out unavkebti say anything more. My heart has broken all over again.

Lisa stood with a bright smile "alright, lets go get daddy some food, i bet he's starving."

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. "I am! Bring me back something good." I said and yawned. As they left and shut the door I dozed dreaming of Em and her being pregnant. It was a wonderful dream where we couldn't wait to have our snow and Lisa was there helping. It was just wonderful. It

[melbender]

I was exhausted from being up all night with Alex who suffers from nightmares due to the accident and then helping Noah. It was hard, on top of Mia who wanted my attention constantly. When I seen Lisa's car, I was happy Zander could finally be home. When she was walking in with the kids, that's when I grew uncomfortable and instantly tensed up. "Zander!" Mia called out, running to him. "I drew you a picture!"

[Ashwag24]

I smiled and picked her up wincing a little. "That's awesome I can't wait to see it princess. I looked over at em and smiled she seemed tired. That's when I felt Lisa by my side helping me put Mia down. "Thanks." Walking inside felt a little strange I don't remember much about this place. I saw Noah and my smile faded. Dear god that poor boy.

[melbender]

"Thanks Lisa, for helping bring him home." I took the bags from her, wishing she would leave.

Lisa walked in the house gasping "oh wow, I can't believe you actually built this house. It's incredible."

"What do you mean?" I asked a little confused. How did she know about his plans to build. It was built after they broke up.

"Oh he always talked about building this place.." her gaze drifted to the boy in the chair. "How is he today? I can recommend some good nurses-"

"I am Caring for him." I said a little too quickly giving Zander a glare before walking off with Mia in my arms and pushing Noahs chair. Alex sat on the couch and didn't say a word, he quickly too got up and ran off.

[Ashwag24]

I watched her glare at me, what the fuck did I do. As they walked away I walked over to lisa. "Sorry I don't know what is going on with her. It I'll find out." I hugged her and pulled back. "Thanks for bringing me home and for breakfast this morning it was delicious I didn't know you could cook." I said smiling. It was strange. I watched Mickey and molly give love to their mum and we walked her to the door. After that I walked over to see why she was so rude. "Hey um Em what was all that about? Lisa was just trying to help?"

[melbender]

I looked at him incredulously and fought the urge not to slap him back into hospital. "She comes in our home again, and I'll walk out and won't be back." This was not the happy reunion I had been dreaming of. "I'm not going to argue with you. I have my children to look after." I said lowly, not wanting the kids to hear how upset and angry I was. "I can't believe you hugged her.. and said-" i just shook my head and walked off.

[Ashwag24]

I walked off after her. I stoped her and pulled her into a room by herself. "Talk to me! I don't know what the hell I did. I just fucking woke up from a damn coma and don't know what the hell I going on! I can't remember shit." I said the last part lower and rubbed my temples as the pain started back up. "I hate that I don't remember. I only know that we are together and how we got together, I know I have feelings for you I just can't remember how strong those feelings went. I keep having dreams so I know they are pretty strong. Your gonna have to help me out."

[melbender]

"You think you have feelings for me?" My eyes burned with tears. "Do you have feelings for Lisa? Tell me the truth Zander because I need to know right now, what you're feeling for her." God I felt sick to my stomach that he wasn't sure about us.

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her like she was crazy. "Lisa is the mother of my children I will always carry something for her. But I know that it's not live anymore. I mean she went bat shit crazy I remember that. She is acting like how she use to before all that craziness but I won't go through it again." Who could she even ask this.

[melbender]

I looked away, hurt but this but what could I expect. He was right, she was their mother. "Well that clears that up.." I raised my left hand pointing to the diamond ring on my finger "we were engaged to be married three days before the accident.." lowering my hand, I slid the ring off and placed it on the dresser beside him. "I don't think I should wear it anymore, not until you remember what you feel for me.. if you ever do."

[Ashwag24]

I watched her walk away and then looked at the damn ring. "Shit!" I really need to remember. But the doctor said it to force it. But I know I dream of giving her that ring and how I did it but she doesn't look pregnant. So that part most of been wishful thinking.

The next couple of weeks didn't feel much better my head hurt worse and I couldn't remember a damn thing. I talked to Lisa more and em less. She seemed to be pulling away from me more. Maybe because of Lisa or not I didn't know know. All I knew is I think if I have any luck remembering I would need Ems help.

[melbender]

Lisa was always here, god I was so angry. I watched as they laughed and talked, they were so happy. The kids were happy and it made me wonder if I was just here from pity or guilt. Mia didn't even call him daddy anymore or play with him, the boys barely spoke and Alex's nightmares were still as bad. Sick of sitting here listening to Lisa talk about old times, i opened the paper and started looking at houses for sale, marking some that would be good for the kids and I. "Lisa are you staying for dinner?" I didn't look up as I asked.

"Oh that'd be lovely." She smiled.

Of course she would. "Wonderful."

[Ashwag24]

I watched Em. She didn't know I was watching. And as she asked Lisa if she was staying I knew I n ended to do something. "I'm actually I thought you were taking molly and Mickey to that arcade place where there is food?" I say to Lisa. I needed time with Em I needed to get back what I know was there. I just wish I knew why she was always said especially when Lisa brought up the twins as babies.

[melbender]

"Oh." Lisa sounded surprised "you're right, and I should be off. I'll bring the kids down on Friday for their weekend and pick them up Sunday." She stood grabbing her things.

I didn't say anything as Lisa left, I stayed seated because I knew if I looked up at him I would burst into tears. "I'm surprised you didn't go with them." I pointed out.

[Ashwag24]

I sighed "I thought my mum could come watch the kids and we could go on a date." Her head snapped up. "But if you want to stay in those grungy clothes and stay here that's fine too." I got up and put my glass in the sink. "I need help em! My memory isn't coming back I thought it would have by now, I keep having these dreams and I know they have to mean something. Please help me out here!"

[melbender]

"Why don't you ask Lisa?" I shrugged "you seem to be having the time of your life with her.." I closed the newspaper and sighed looking up. "I'm not leaving the house, I have dinner cooked and need to help Noah eat it." I pointed out then sighed "what dreams are you having?"

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. "First off stop with the Lisa jabs please. She is at least trying to help." I knew that was the wrong thing to say as soon as it left my lips. "Sorry okay, it's just you seem so closed off. I know this wasn't how it was with us I have some memories of us and all of them happy so why can't we be that way now? Your jealous over someone that you shouldn't be. I told you I don't love her!" I was getting mad now. "Your being childish. You need to get out of the house. All you do is cater to Noah!" Fuck I just keep saying the wrong things. "I know he needs help but I think you help him too much I also think Alex needs to be pushed to go out maybe that will help him instead of being babied all the time." I sighed. "I already asked my mum to watch the kids, so go get ready. It's. it a choice this time.
We are going out." I walked away not wanting to hear any excuses.

[melbender]

"Fine we'll go out and I'll show you the house I'm moving into without you!" I yelled back angrily. He had made me feel like utter shit and taken Lisa's side yet again. I got up following after him to the bedroom, "my ex husband kidnapped my boys, so no I won't be leaving them with your alcoholic mother who if you could remember, you'd know she was too busy having sex to watch Mia!" I yelled. "Because she left her house and walked back home without her knowing l for over two hours! My sons are doing just fine so back off and don't tell me what they need." Walking closer my chest rising and falling "i told you if she kept staying here the. I was out, I meant it too Zander."

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head. "They are our children I think I should know what's best for them!" I said. "Who gives a rats ass about Lisa! It seems your the only one! You can't leave and take them! No get the fuck dressed we are going out." I took a step closer to her. "Oh and don't forget you let my mum watch them while I was in the hospital, correct me if I'm wrong but I'm the one with the brain injury yet that is clear in my head. So don't go using that as a excuse!" I stepped even closer so are cheat we're touching. I wanted to kiss her. "We have a lot to discuss at dinner." I whispered. "One being these dreams, two being how you are going behind my back looking for a house and three why your shutting me out when I need you! You Emilia not Lisa!" Yelling the last part.

[melbender]

My chest rose and fell faster from the heat surging through me at how close we were "well I told you I didn't want her here anymore. Imagine if my ex husband and I were talking the way you and she do, hownwould you feel watching another man stroke my thigh or hold my hand, for me to tell him I'm so glad he was here! It broke my heart to have her bring you to or goddamn house after I was the one by your side every day, it was me giving you sponge baths and trimming your nails and hair in that hospital then coming home to everything I dealt with!" I snapped back, not moving. "And all I get was you know we're together but you're not sure how you feel about me." Laughing bitterly "my kids called you dad, that's how close we were!" I pushed his chest "we were fucking every chance we got, but you've not even kissed me in weeks so guess Lisa is taking care of that too."

[Ashwag24]

I was a little livid especially when she mentioned another man touching her. She had a damn good point. I looked at her, her shallow breaths her chest moving rapidly. I swallowed hard. "Get dressed we are going out." Still not moving I just stared at her. Fuck I wanted to kiss the living daylights out of her. If she didn't move I would.

[melbender]

I stared back at him, unable to move or too afraid to. I didn't want to. I just wanted him to kiss me for once. "I told you already, I'm not going anywhere!"

[Ashwag24]

I too on a deep breath. "Fucking get dressed now!" I said as she shook her head. "Damnit." I yelled before pulling her to me and crashing my lips to hers in a all needy kiss nothing romantic about it our teeth clattered and I bit her bottom lip then sucked in into my mouth needing more of her. Fuck! Why now! A image of her and all our kids happy watching a sonogram. I pulled back looking at her. "Why?" I said then looking at her belly. "Why do I keep getting images of you and sonograms?"

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