Huntington Disease (Melbenda and I)

[melbender]

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I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I didn't want to believe it. "was she young?" if she kept bringing up some young girl then I had to wonder if she was still around here too.

[melbender]

"what?" i was confused. Cupping her cheeks, I shook my head "youre not wrong, why do you think that?" shit I couldn't lose her.

[Ashwag24]

i couldn't look at him. "Matt, let's just get going please we will talk later after we say our goodbyes to your mum." I said stepping away. This day wasn't about me. It's about her and his family. I walked outside and waited. God I'm such a bitch.

[melbender]

I was extremely confused. Had i done something wrong, or was she made with me. I couldn't tell. God I sucked. I
came out and got into the car. "at you hungry? I could grab something on the way?"

[Ashwag24]

i couldn't eat if I wanted to. "No I'm good but if you are you should get something." I said still looking out the window. What the hell why was I being a bitch to him. After we said our goodbyes to his mum and we were on our way back and we still haven't talked i got tired and dozed off.

[melbender]

I picked her up and carried her into the house. Putting her in bed, I went back to the kitchen and grabbed a beer. I didn't know what I'd done and why she was ignoring me. Thinking of mum, I fought off the tears until I couldn't stop crying.

[Ashwag24]

i got up and heard him crying I felt so bad. I walked out and over to him. I sat on his lap and pulled him to me. "I'm so sorry I'm such a bitch." I said kissing his head." I rubbed my hands in circles on his back.

[melbender]

I placed a kiss to her forehead and smiled "youre not a bitch" I chuckled "I love you baby."

[Ashwag24]

i sighed. "No I am i wasn't here for you and you need me! I'm sorry. I love you too. I'm just worried and emotional." I kissed him again and laid my head on his shoulder.

[melbender]

"why are you worried for?" i looked up, "are you worried about school or work? You know i can take care of you, don't stress about it that." I want to take care of her forever.

[Ashwag24]

"I'm not stressed about that silly." I said with a laugh. "I'm worried i ruined things with you specially if my stupid self is pregnant." I looked down and sighed. "I'm so sorry I didn't think."

[melbender]

I paused before asking "would it be such a bad thing if you were?"

[Ashwag24]

i looked at him. "Are you kidding me. You were so mad! And I'm not ready to be a mother we aren't married and that should come first. I was stupid and careless. I don't know if it would be fair to bring a child into the world when we hardly know each other." I rambled on.

[melbender]

"shh" I chuckled and covered her lips with a kiss. "yes I was mad, but I was more freaking out and wasnt expecting you to tell me you hadn't taken the pill. I'd prefer to have a job, and is be married in our own place and maybe travel before kids came into it," I stroked her cheek "but if you are then we'll still be right."

[Ashwag24]

i smiled. "Yeah we will be!" I hugged him and yawned. "Are you going to be okay?"

[melbender]

I didn't know how to answer that. "with you,  I will be." I smiled and pulled her close "you want to go back to the city and pack your things up? "

[Ashwag24]

"let's rest and go tomorrow. It's late." I said yawning. I laid my head back on him and smiled. "Your too good for me."

[melbender]

"doubt it." i laughed and carried her to the bedroom. "youre amazing, don't ever doubt yourself baby. Not around me." I laid her down and stripped off, climbing in and pulling her against my chest. "I love you so much. That won't change."

[Ashwag24]

i smiled a lazy smile. "I hope it never changes." I snuggled back into him and dozed off instantly.

[melbender]

The new few days we didn't really do much. Packed her things up and then stayed at my place. I cooked us dinner and brought it into her. She's been quiet and I was fearing she wanted to break up. "hungry?"

[Ashwag24]

"not really." I said looking off past him. "I'm going to the doctors tomorrow. I'm going to have them do a test." I said with a shaky breath. "I just wanted to let you know. I'm nervous Matt."

[melbender]

"have you already booked the appointment? " god suddenly I was no longer hungry.

[Ashwag24]

i looked up at him. "I did I'm sorry." Maybe I shouldn't have was it wrong did I screw up again. "Do you want me to cancel it?"

[melbender]

"no, why would I want that?" i took a seat beside her and put my head in my hands "do you want me to go with you?"

[Ashwag24]

i sighed. "I do but I'm not going to pig you. I know this could change a lot of things. I'm just scared. I haven't been training because I don't want to hurt the baby if there is one but if there isn't i have wasted time." I started to cry I hated this.

[melbender]

"can't you take a home test?" i suggested.  I was angry that I stopped wearing condoms. I was taking all her dreams away from her. "I need to get some air." I was ready to punch something. I fucked her life up.

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