Escape ( Ash and Mel )

[melbender]

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“We haven’t had one since colt died, I thought that maybe it’s time for you to have a furry friend again.” I let him go, and he eagerly ran over his new daddy. “Happy birthday Tanner,” I just loved seeing him smile and happy.

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. “I promise baby.” We walked down and I went into my office grabbing the book and some other things for Gunnar. Knocking on the door I kissed char. “They remind me of us in ways you know.”

[melbender]

I looked at Gunnar and frowned, “who’s that?” I mouthed and then realised it was probably my parents. I got up and opened the door, to see them both standing there. “Hi.” I was surprised and knew it showed.

“We thought we would come say hi before bed, and to give you this.” I held out the baby book, and I swear Gunnar looked relieved. “It helped Tanner out a lot.”

[Ashwag24]

Gunnar smiled “thank you, we were just talking about this.”  I was happy they came by.

Tanner smiled.  “Good I also wanted to bring some other littler things to read as well for Gunnar, also thoighr he would want to hang out with us a little and have lunch while you girls go out for girl time.”

[melbender]

“Tomorrow? That sounds great! Umm, are you bringing Willow too?” Lily asked hoping she would.

“I can, otherwise I can leave her here with the boys to watch.” I smiled. “We can grab lunch, and go shopping, I’m sure you need new clothes.”

“Definitely.” Lily beamed. “Sounds perfect!”

[Ashwag24]

Tanner smiled. “I think willow wanted to go with you both, but if leaving her with us then that’s okay too.”

Gunnar squeezed Lily’s hand. Leaning in to whisper “should we tell them about our surprise?”

[melbender]

“So, we’re having a girl!” I couldnt hold it in. “Isn’t that exciting! I can’t wait to buy so many pink things and dress her up all pretty.” I grinned, squeezing Gunnar’s hand.

I smiled for her “that’s wonderful, very exciting.” I hugged them both. “You will find yourself surrounded by a lot of pink by the sounds of it.” I laughed to Gunnar. “I’m very happy for you both.”

[Ashwag24]

I smile at my daughter “thats amazing princess!”  I was going to say more but willow started to make some noises.  “Well we better get back and let y’all eat.  Tomkorow lunch don’t forget Gunnar!”  

I nodded.  “I won’t.” I looked at lily and smiled I hope she was calm now and she can see how much her parents love her.

[melbender]

“She’s going to be fussy most of the night, I can tell.” I said walking back into the room and over to willow who was screaming until I picked her up and held her close to my chest. “She wants the boob, so looks like I’ll be sleeping and feeding in the bed with her.” And another night we couldn’t make love. “Sorry.”

[Ashwag24]

I gave her a small smile. “I love you baby and she needs your comfort I’ll still hold my girls tonight don’t worry.” I kissed her head and went to get in on my side I really wanted to make love to her tonight it willow had other plans.

[melbender]

“I love you.” I whispered, laying on my side with her muzzled against my body close as she fed. I felt his arm around my waist and I loved that feeling. “You’re so warm.”

[Ashwag24]

I smirked. “I bet your warm inside baby.” I kissed her back and held her tight. “Can’t wait to be alone with you.”

[melbender]

“Stop teasing.” I whispered, and I fell asleep in his arms feeling safely. Packed and ready to go, I was pretty much carried to the car and locked in for our weekend away. James promised to send updates hourly and send photos. “Two nights alone and child free.. I may have something red for you to take off with your teeth.”

[Ashwag24]

“Mmmmm and I may have something for you when we get there.” To start our weekend off right we will both get a hour of relaxation then we will be alone! As I pulled up and saw the van ‘envy massages’ I looked over at her. “I ordered us couple massages baby.”

[melbender]

“Oh you did go all out.” I haven’t had a massage in years, and this with him would be perfect. “Make sure she doesn’t rub you too well.” I winked, kissing his cheek. “I’m excited!”

[Ashwag24]

I laughed. “Well, we will be right next to each other so you can keep her in track and I can do the same with yours!” I winked. “I’ll get the bags you go in and get ready baby.”

[melbender]

“How about, after the massages I’ll give you a happy ending with my mouth.” I smiled, and just like that our weekend was filled with insatiable passion, reconnecting and laughter.

The day of his vascetomy came, and I pretended to be ok. It was sad knowing this was it, our growing family was coming to an end and Willow was our last. I stayed home, keeping busy so I didn’t burst in there and stop it from happening. He came home, and looked in pain with a limp. “Oh baby, sit and relax. The kids are coming over for dinner. Are you ok?”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. “Id be okay if they didn’t shove a thing into my pee hole baby, it fucking hurts. I need a bag of peas now.” I groaned when I sat down.

[melbender]

I winced at the image in my mind “I did offer to have my tubes done.” I said getting the peas from the freezer and taking them over. “Your sons will be here soon for dinner.” I kissed him and walked away before I cried. I was an emotion mess.

“Guess what! We have an important announcement to make, dad got a vascetomy!” Tom grinned taking a seat at the dinner table “about time!”

“What do you mean about time?” I asked, half rolling my eyes. “He could have gone anytime, actually he did years ago but chickened out.”

Finn scoffed cutting up his steak “he didn’t because you were crazy about having dozens of kids. Seriously ma, we don’t need anymore siblings.”

“Yeah we have plenty.” Sam joined in. “Bet dads relieved not to go through it again. Should give the guy a break.”

I know they were joking but it was upsetting me. “Your dads the one who can’t keep off of me. You all assumed it was me, maybe it’s him.” I winked.

“Gross.” Finn mumbled.

“Yeah but now he won’t have to panic each month whether he’s knocked you up again or not.” Tom smirked.

“I’m sorry?”

“No offence but it’s like you’re obsessed with breeding. You’re going to be like 80 when Lenny and Willow move out. That’s a bit wrong isn’t it? You won’t be around for them much.”

“I won’t be 80. I’m only 39 remember.” I half rolled my eyes. “Anyway, that’s just rude.”

“I’m just relieved not to be living here anymore. We don’t have to listen to them crying and you complaining about us not helping with the chores.” Nate winked. “But feel free to bring us a few frozen dinners that we can heat up, and you can still do our laundry.”

I looked at them all wondering if they felt like this. Was I just the maid? The one who cooks and cleans for them? It hurt me and finally I snapped. I kept my words low, staring at the plate. “It breaks my heart, to think I have spent my life making sure you have all you could ever want and need, that you’re always fed, wearing clean clothes and living in a loving home. You have no respect for me at all. I’m your god damn mother and this is how you talk to me?” I looked up. “You don’t speak to your father this way, it’s always me who’s made out to be the one to blame. You have no idea what we went through, what I went through when your father was in a coma for four years, making lily one, and you four 18 months old when he was hurt during that match. I went though a twin pregnancy on my own and then, they were just under 4 before he woke up, you boys and lily were in school. He missed everything, and is only experiencing it again with Lenny and Willow.. don’t you dare say I’m forcing him because he has a voice, before you complain about your younger siblings, and praise your dad, just remember he hasn’t experienced the terrible twos, or the toddler tantrums that I have done. All of you at once screaming and fighting through dinner, baths and bedtime stories. I did it alone with 7 kids and this is how you all thank me? This is how I am treated when I am the one who fucking struggled every single day, but still managed to keep you fed and cared for without my pain affecting you. You think it’s ok to speak this way? By complaining about having more siblings? And having to do a few chores?” I tossed my napkin on the table and shook my head standing “do you forget what traumatic events I have been through? That I have lost three children but I wasn’t allowed to take time for myself and just grieve like I wanted, because I still have you lot to care for and I couldn’t just lock myself in my bedroom and spend a week in bed? No, Your dad needed me after the car accident and so did you all. I kept going on with life because I had you all who needed me.”

“Doesn’t mean you need to replace them.” Andy said the words before thinking.

Tears in my eyes as I looked at him and then at Tanner. “Yep, fuck mum and what she feels, she’s here to slave after everyone else”. I scoffed. “If this is how your sons speak to their mother, I wonder how they treat women.” Was all I could manage as I walked away with tears down my cheeks.

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head. As she walked away. “What the fuck Andy? Seriously why? I really hope you all started to really think about what you say and think from now on.” Is this really how she felt fuck I didn’t know. “For all your information I wanted all of you just as much if not more, this isn’t all in her she didn’t force me and you all have been so lucky to have her as a mum.” I was so upset. “Make sure you all clean up before leaving I’m going to make sure she is okay she is really upset.”

[melbender]

I didn’t go to our bedroom, I went to the wine cellar and took a bottle of my favourite wine, and a glass, grabbing a blanket as I walked down by the bank and sat out on the chair, tears burning my eyes as I stared at nothing, but just crying. I heard footsteps, not bothering to look as i unscrewed the cork. “Don’t worry, I’ve got milk in bottles for tonight.” I murmured quietly

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head and sat down in front of her and poured her a glass. “Baby I’m so sorry I knew you needed help but I just didn’t know you felt this way. Those boys are just spoiled to much by me and I need to stop they need to treat women better specially you.” I laid my head in her lap. “Maybe you need some time at the lake or my shack.”

[melbender]

“Maybe I do.” I whispered. “I’m exhausted and sick of no one hearing me.” More tears fell as I stared up at the sky. “And of course you got a vascetomy, I’m just not ready for all of this.. it happened so fast, I wasn’t mentally prepared to have my daughter come home married and pregnant, and the you go and get snipped. I just need time.”

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. “Then take your time I’ll hold down the fort. I’ll come and visit when I can and I’ll keep you updated on everything. I just want you happy and I’m not doing the best job of helping.” It was always this and I hated it.

[melbender]

“I didn’t say that about you.” I sniffed, “it wasn’t directed towards you. I’m saying they see you as this big hero, this wonderful dad and they never talk to you like the way they do me. I’m always the bad one, and I don’t know why they hate me so much. Maybe I am just a horrible mother.” I cried, bursting into tears.

[Ashwag24]

I pulled her to me ignoring the pain in my cock and balls. “Baby they don’t hate you, and I know you didn’t say those things to me but I haven’t helped out enough and that doesn’t sit well with me.” I kissed her head. “You need to go relax, I’ll come up and get more milk for willow and Lenny you take care of yourself.” I hated that she was upset about the snipping. I hated that she told me she was okay with it when she wasn’t.

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