The boy who saved me

[melbender]

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lily suffered something tragic. 

Scared and afraid, she struggles to see the light after a night that went terribly wrong. 

Then she see’s him again.. and everything changes. Can he bring her back to whole, and completely heal her.

[melbender]

“I’m going-“ I covered my mouth and ran down to his bathroom, on my knees I couldn’t stop the bile that rose and came out. My head hot, and I felt flushed and sick. “I’m sorry, I’ve been sick all week, I thought it was the plane but guess not.”

[Ashwag24]

I was so worried. “Lily maybe you should see a doctor I can take you to the ER if you want?” I wondered if her parents knew because I doubt they would have let her come her if she was ill.

[melbender]

“No, I wanted to come here and see you.” I smiled, but a wave of nausea hit me again and I threw up. I hated that he was right. “Find but then we come back here when they say I’m good and healthy.”  I reluctantly agreed. They took blood tests and I sat on the bed nervously, just asking about his classes when the doctor walked back in. It was the same one from that night. 

“Lily, it seems you’re pregnant. Almost five weeks along.” She said softly and glanced at Gunnar.

[Ashwag24]

I looked at the doctor then looked at lily. Oh shit that bastard didn’t use anything and got her pregnant. I didn’t care she was pregnant. I worried about her. I got up and saw the fear in her eyes. I walked over and sat with her on the bed. “Lily I’m here with you, we will be fine. I will support you if you want to keep this blessing then we will raise him or her together as our own.” I kissed her head and held her not knowing what else to do or say.

[melbender]

How could he call it a blessing. “Can we go back to your place? Please, I just can’t go home tonight.. I can’t face them.” I whispered, humiliated. 

“Lily, you have options which I know we spoke about before. If you’re wanting to go ahead with them, then tomorrow I can fit you in for a termination. Just let me know in the morning.” She smiled and left the room.

[Ashwag24]

I didn’t like that but I couldn’t tell lily that. “Come on my lily pad let’s go home and I’ll text your brother letting him know your sick and sleeping.” I held her close and once back at my place I tucked her in my bed and smiled. “Do you need or want anything?”

[melbender]

I looked at him, my throat was dry and I felt sick. “I don’t want his baby.. I can’t.. I’m too young to be a mother.” I said quietly, tears prickling my eyes as I rolled over facing away from him. How could he want me now. I was a disgusting mess.

[Ashwag24]

I sighed and laid down in bed behind her.  “Lily it’s your decision and I’ll support you with whatever you want to do.  Maybe you should talk to your mum about this before making your choice.  I know the doctor said she could get you in tomorrow I just think you should really have some time and really think this over either way I’m here and not going anywhere.”  I kissed the back of her head and held her tight as I felt her crying.  I would support her I just may not like what she decides.

[melbender]

“Are you serious, you could love me even though I have another guys baby inside of me?” Because I wanted to kill myself. I felt disgusting. “Gunner, I don’t want this baby.”

[Ashwag24]

“I do love you, I will love you regardless.” I kissed her head again and then turned her to look at me. “I’m serious lily, I’ll support you regardless.” I saw the fear in her eyes and hated it. That bastard would pay I will find him and beat the shot out of him for doing this to her.

[melbender]

“Is rather be pregnant to you than anyone else.” I felt physically sick knowing he done this and I didn’t want him to be apart of me

[Ashwag24]

I kissed her softly. “And we will one day in the future. I promise you that.” I went to kiss her again but heard a knock. “It’s probably your brother, I’ll try to get him to go home okay. You rest. I love you lily.”

[melbender]

I smiled resting my head on the pillow and closing my eyes then heard my mother’s voice. “I’ve had the doctor call me to inform my daughter is pregnant.” Charlotte said quietly. “She can come back in a couple of days but I’d like her to come home now.”

[Ashwag24]

“She doesn’t want to keep the baby she needs you.” I looked back behind me. “If it’s okay with you I’d like to come back with you to be there for her. I want to be able to go with her if she decides to. I-“. I didn’t know what to say I didn’t like this. “I’m afraid if I’m not around her I’ll find that stupid boy and kill him.”

[melbender]

I sighed, and looked at him “you won’t touch him and you can come to the house but she needs time to heal.” I said quietly. “She won’t be keeping it, she’s far too young and I won’t have her make a decision that she will regret for the rest of her life.” I said as l saw lily walking out. “It’s ok Gunnar, I’ll be back in a couple of days.”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her then her mother. I have a feeling if she goes through with this she will regret it. But it’s not my choice and she doesn’t want to be with me right now it hurt. I wanted to be there for her. I was going to go crazy. I walked over and kissed her head. “Call me if you need me I’ll be there okay.”

[melbender]

“I love you.” I whispered, and kissed him goodbye with tears in my eyes. I was going to miss him but I knew mum was going to be furious if I didn’t come home and I couldn’t risk a fight right now.

[Ashwag24]

Watching her leave was hard. As she did I sat on my couch for a while then got up and paced back and forth. That boy needed to pay.

[melbender]

I laid in my bed wishing I was with him. Pulling out my phone I sent a message - I miss you so much xx you deserve better. -

[Ashwag24]

I heard my phone and ran to my room looking at the message I shook my head. -no lily I deserve you. You deserve better I’m worried. I want to kill that guy you know, I want to make all the pain and hurt go away for you-

[melbender]

I could hear my parents fighting and felt even worse as tears spilled out - I’m always yours. Just don’t hate me. I know you don’t understand. I just can’t have a baby that isn’t Ours-

[Ashwag24]

-I’ll never hate you lily, I just think you should think a little more, I’m not telling you what you should or shouldn’t do, I love you all of you, even the child you carry because it is a part of you, I’ll be there tomorrow if you want me to- Sighing I know I couldn’t possibly understand how she feels. -if you don’t want then I’ll be here waiting on you.-

[melbender]

-I’d like you to be. I need you.- I wrote back and walked downstairs after hearing my dads office door slam. I walked in quietly and sat on the chair “please don’t fight with mum. She isn’t forcing me to do anything, it’s me who wants this and you and Gunnar keep saying think about it and take time but I don’t want to take anymore time.. dad, he raped me. I have part of him and I cannot love a child when all I will be reminded of is him and that night. I want to have children when I’m ready, and  not ready so please respect my decision.” I said with tears running down my cheeks

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. -I’ll Be there just tell me the time- I had to try to sleep because this day just went from one happy one to one sad one.

[melbender]

I felt my phone vibrate and looked down at the screen, reading his message. “Well I’m off to bed. Goodnight.” I said quietly, leaving him alone once again. I walked to my room, climbing underneath the covers and just staring st the ceiling. Tomorrow couldn’t come sooner.

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