Hidden lovers

[melbender]

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Wanting something you know you cant have is always tempting.

She was with a guy she thought she'd be with forever. Until he dumped her cold and hard. Hooking up with a random at her best friends wedding.

He's being forced to marry. With no way out of it, he goes to his best friends wedding and hooks up with the maid of honour.

Never expecting to bump into each other again, until they did... at her parents house, celebrating his engagement with a lavish party.

It should have ended. It didn't.

He makes it clear it's just sex.. nothing more and she thinks she's ok with that until she falls pregnant.. his gay brother says it's his and they've been dating in secret.

Will he find out the truth?

But as always, all good things must come to an end. Leaving someone heartbroken.

[Ashwag24]

Well at least it was something but I would keep a eye on her. After we ate more I smiled and yawned. "Want to walk or head in for the night?" She nodded to the tent. We made love and I dozed off waking to someone getting sick outside he tent. I walked out seeing Mia bent over. I shook my head. "Baby what's wrong?"

[melbender]

"I told you I couldn't eat anymore, I woke up almost spewing in the tent." I heaved again. Tears in my eyes "don't want me."

[Ashwag24]

I rubbed her back. "Don't want you? What are you talking about?" I hated this maybe we should just go home now. Things started to seem like they were getting worse now. I was confused she kept saying don't want me and she is good enough. "Baby shhh your perfect I love you I want you."

[melbender]

I rolled my eyes when I was able to talk clearer "I meant don't watch me throw up." There was nothing pretty about this. "God I feel horrible. I stink. I need a shower and or bed."

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. "Do you want to head home? You can sit in the car while I pack everything up." I didn't want to leave but if she wanted to then we would. I would do anything for her.

[melbender]

"No. I want you to just give me some space." I snapped. "I'm going for a walk." I grabbed my coat and a flashlight and just started walking. I felt like I couldn't breathe and was going to have a panic attack

[Ashwag24]

I'm loosing her. I thought as she walked away. I sat down by the barely there fire and decided to restart it. I need to think of something to keep her or I will need to just let her go, it seems like we always end up here maybe we aren't meant to be. I hated it I hated this.

[melbender]

I walked around and down to the beach, it was so peaceful here and watching the waves relaxed me. I felt guilty. Here I am enjoying myself when I shouldn't be. My son is dead. I don't deserve to be happy. I laid back staring at the stars and wished everything was just a bad dream.

[Ashwag24]

I waited and waited. I was so worried she didn't have her phone and I had no clue where she was I started to pace. I really think she needs to talk to someone.

[melbender]

I made my way back to the camp site feeling a little better and more calmer. He was walking back and forth "what are you doing?" I asked coming up behind him.

[Ashwag24]

I jumped a little. "Ummm I was waiting for you. I was worried sorry." Shit I still had no idea what to do or say . I know I lost her already and I don't know if I should walk away.

[melbender]

"Oh" I said quietly. "We should get some sleep. I'm exhausted." And I had no doubt he was too. Tomorrow I was going to sleep the day away and not deal wth anything.

[Ashwag24]

We went into the tent and she was asleep in no time I couldn't sleep once I did fall I didn't stay asleep long waking I went out and cooked breakfast checked on Mia by lunch she was still sleeping, but I still made us both food. By dinner I was so worried she wasn't breathing but I checked and she was. She just didn't want to deal with anything. Once she woke I was heading to bed not sleeping well the night before. We didn't talk and it sucked. The following day we decided we'll I decided it was time to get back. I loaded everything while she was sleeping. Once the tent was the last thing I woke her and she barely opened her eyes so I just picked her up and put her in the car. Loading the rest and got in to drive home.

[melbender]

Well this had turned out great. I wasn't ready to go back to that house. I couldn't stay there knowing my son wasn't there with us. "Where are we going?" I asked as he joined me in the car. "I don't want to go home."

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. "I don't know I was actually heading home, I was thinking about going back to work." I looked at her. "Mia I don't know what to do here I don't even know what to say. So I guess let me take you somewhere so you have some time. But I need to work. I'm sorry." I hope she gets it together because I can't tell what she wants she tells me she wants to get married but she pulls so far away.

[melbender]

He was breaking up with me. I just nodded and stared out at the window. My heart breaking all over again. "Just drop me off at my parents house." I'd go and stay there. How could he work so soon? Our son had died and he was going back as if everything was normal.

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. "Mia-" Shit she wouldn't look at me. "Mia I just thought you wanted time I mean you haven't said two words to me since the other night you took off and all you have been doing is sleeping. I need to get my mind off the hurt." I pulled over and pulled her hand in mine. "I love you and I'm hurting just like you but I can't just sleep all the time help I can't sleep. And it's like you shut yourself off to me and I need you damnit! But if your just going to sleep all damn day and night. I can't I just can't I know your hurting but we need to be there for each other but ever since I brought up kids and you not being on anything it's like your pushing me away." I didn't mean to get upset but I was. "I love you mia I do. It I can't just sleep all the time I need to get my mind off the hurt."

[melbender]

"Were camping, I am tired from crying constantly! What do you want me to say? That I blame myself for his death! That I hate myself! Jesus I am sorry that I'm too much to handle for you, that when I'm asleep I dream of our son and he's alive." I couldn't believe he was giving up on me. "We buried our baby not even a week ago, the last thing on my mind is another child." I pulled away wiping my tears away and looked out the window "I just need to be able to grieve my own way and you're telling me that you don't want me.. So take me home and you just go back to your place."

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. "I'm not saying that at all I never once have I ever said I don't want you! Damnit I've never said I didn't want you. I want you all the time with me! It's just your pushing me away. I want our son back!" I rubbed my neck. "Just tell me please what you need from me so I can help you! I want to help you. But I feel like I can't! Damnit I never said I wanted another child so quickly. I didn't know you were on anything and I got a little worried." I calmly talked and just wanted to hold her. "Baby please we need to help each other through this not fight."

[melbender]

I broke down, I was hurting him as well. "I don't know how to fix how I feel." there was a part of me that thought I wouldn't ever feel the same again. "I want to get married." I whispered, finally looking up at him.

[Ashwag24]

I missed her hard. "I do too, I want us." I was just worried if we did this now she would regret it in the long run. "We n Ed to work together we need to talk. I want another child some day not now but some day. I want to be happy again I want us to be happy."

[melbender]

"I know you do. And one day I'll want that too." I looked up sadly. "Where do we go from here? Are you breaking up with me?" I was afraid to hear his answer. I couldn't loose him too.

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head. "No mia baby I'm not breaking up with me, if you want to get rid of me then you will break up with me!" I kissed her. "I love you and I don't know where we go from here by we do it together."

[melbender]

We didn't get married that day.We drove back to the house, took a shower together and made love so passionately that we both held each other afterwards afraid to let go.

That was four months ago and everyday since, he's been working and slipped back into everyday life. I however didn't cope as well and stayed home. At first I stayed in my pyjamas most the time and would lay in bed watching tv. I'd lost so much weight my clothes didn't fit anymore. Then I began to get up when he left or work and take a shower, and I found a comfort in cooking. That turned into me writing everything I made down and soon I had well over 200 recipes. Arlos room was still kept shut when I walked past, but I stopped and opened his door. It was the perfect boys room. I didn't go in there, I left it open and made my way to the doctors for a check up. My arm where the implant had been was hurting me and the doctor said to come it for an alternative. A blood test later with some shocking results, I went to Keefers office to find him with my idea and some lunch.

[Ashwag24]

I was working on a new design when my office door opened I looked up and was surprised to see Mia walk in with a bag of food. "Well this is a surprise. Is everything okay?" I was so shocked to see her out of the house.

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