The boy who saved me

[melbender]

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lily suffered something tragic. 

Scared and afraid, she struggles to see the light after a night that went terribly wrong. 

Then she see’s him again.. and everything changes. Can he bring her back to whole, and completely heal her.

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. “Don’t ever think I don’t want you.” I hated that she thought that. “I just don’t want to be there reason you miss out on anything you want. I mean I made the mistake and forgot to put a condom on that caused you to get pregnant and then withdraw from school then lose our baby to now I can’t be the reason you hurt baby. I can’t. I love you to damn much to hurt you anymore.”

[melbender]

“You don’t make me miss out on anything.” I wish he could understand that I wanted to see the world with him. “Don’t worry about it, I’ll ask Noah and I’m sure he will come, it’ll be fine.” I looked at the floor, trying to focus on something else.

[Ashwag24]

I sighed and lifted her chin up to look at me. “Don’t do that lily, I don’t know why I always end up hurting you I’m not meaning to I just want you happy what do I have to do to just make you happy!” I sighed. “Look if you want to wait then wait if you want to go then go. I want you to make those choices I don’t want to be the one to make them then you regret and hate me. I love you and want you to be happy.”

[melbender]

“I should go. Your dad hates me and is probably calling the police.” I sighed, standing up and bent down to pick up Ash “I don’t know what’s going on with us, but I’m getting the feeling you don’t want this or me anymore.. you say you don’t but then you don’t say much else or do anything.” I said quietly

[Ashwag24]

I got up to my feet a little too quick and got light headed but didn’t care. I wrapped my arms around her. “I want you here with me lily, I want you as my wife I want you as the mother of our children when the time is right, I want you! I want us! I don’t know how else I can tel you this. I hate that you think that and fuck my dad this is my place not his the police can’t do shit if he calls. And if he did they would be kicking him out not you.” I kissed her head. “Stay, Stay here, movie in here it’s closer to your school”

[melbender]

I gasped “move in? Do you mean that? Because I will if you want me too.” I couldn’t believe it. I had tears as I wrapped my arms around him, stroking his face “I love you and these last few weeks have been hell without you.. I want it all with you too.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled.  “I mean it baby, I love you hated these past few weeks I hated it so bad I barely left this room.”  I looked around.  “I’m sure it smells pretty bad in here too.”  I kissed her head.  “So you will move in with us our little fur baby has been clawing the shut out of me because I think he is mad at me for you not being here.”

[melbender]

“Yes.” I beamed, kissing him. “But on one condition, you never hide anything from me about your medical issues. I don’t care if it’s bad, or good. Tell me everything because I don’t want to be left in the dark again like last time.” I looked at him biting my lip.

[Ashwag24]

I smiled at her. “Deal! Although I think I’m getting the better part of this.” I pulled her into my arms careful not to smash our fur baby and kissed her. “We can you move in?”

[melbender]

“I need to ask my parents, and hopefully they agree.” I grinned “but I am 18 soon, so they should say yes.” I but my lip again, letting Ash down on the bed and she ran off “I’ve missed you so bad! When can we.. you know?”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. “Whenever we can get my dad out of here.” I winked and smiled. “I love you I hate that we weren’t talking. I am so sorry about my dad to he is worried about me.”

[melbender]

“It’s ok, I get it.. although I barged through him tonight like a bull.” I blushed cringing as I pulled away and sat down on the bed, the spot where I used to sleep. “You could lock the door.”

[Ashwag24]

I laughed. “I could, but right now can I just hold you in my arms I’ll tell him he can go home tonight and we can have all the fun you want okay?” I just wanted her in my arms and I wanted her to know I wanted her in all all’s not just sex.

[melbender]

“Fine.” I fake pouted, with a smile. “How about we just kiss and cuddle? And don’t tell your dad to leave, he’s only wanting to help.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled. “I like kissing and cuddling and I am going to because I have you to help okay, I don’t need him to tell me to do anything more that I don’t want to.” I was referring to him telling me to go with that bitch.

[melbender]

“What do you mean? Isn’t he helping you to get better?” I asked closing my eyes, loving the feel of his arms around me. It felt like home.

[Ashwag24]

I nodded. “Yes he is but then he made me leave the house when I didn’t want to, he is trying to push me to do things and I don’t want to. I just wanted to rest and work on my school work.” I kissed her head. “I know he thinks he is helping but he isn’t you know.”

[melbender]

“Well, you never have to do anything you don’t want to do. If he wants you to do things, tell him no and if he won’t listen just tell him to leave.” I ran my fingers up and down his chest “I love you Gunnar. I’m so happy you’re ok. When is your next appointment?”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled at how she went from one subject to the next. “I’m two days please say you can come with me.” I held her closer, this appointment was really the start of my new chemo and I wanted her there tontalk with me and keep my mind off things.

[melbender]

“Of course I’ll come with you.” I wouldn’t miss it for anyone. “I’m not going to miss any of your appointments, you can count on me to be there with you.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled “good, I’m I’m going to warn you thought this appointment is for me to start my new chemo, I um might not feel great after the appointment, I may get sick. It will be hard to handle.”

[melbender]

“Its ok. I’ll keep you company and you can help me with school work and online shopping at Sephora.” I grinned, trying not to make a big deal out of it all.

[Ashwag24]

I nodded. “Sounds good to me baby.” I was lucky I had her again, ash jumped up and curled on his side next to lily. “He missed you almost as much as I did. I’m telling you he was mad at me and scratched the hell out of me.

[melbender]

“I bet he was.” I laughed, listening to him purring. “So who’s the woman out there with your dad? Where is your mum?”

[Ashwag24]

I laughed.  “She doesn’t care about me and she really doesn’t care what Dad is doing seeing she left him for the guy that was cleaning our pool.”  I rolled my eyes.  “The lady out there is pretty cool she seems to make him happy at least.” We laid there for a while.  “I think Noah and I aren’t friends anymore, he told me to stay away from you. I really fucked things up didn’t I?”

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