Born for each other

[melbender]

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"I'm drained." I looked up at her "your incredible, you really are." I rubbed my eyes and stood up, "i might go to bed, ill make it up to you in the morning. I promise. "

[Ashwag24]

I sighed and looked back at Ben again.  "You think he is okay?"  I asked hoping Ben would be fine he was still so young.

[melbender]

"I think he will be, hes probably just confused." I sighed hating how all of this went down. "Well come back and stay as long as he needs."

[Ashwag24]

I smiled hoping everything is okay with the baby and Ben.  "I hope both of our kids are okay."  I sighed and looked out the window in worry.

[melbender]

I reached over and took her hand "try not to worry so much. You'll get frown lines" i teased trying to make het smile

[Ashwag24]

As we waited for the doctor to do a ultrasound I was really scared.  But once he was done and said the baby was okay and so was I but I needed to stay for observation for at least 4 hours I got worried about Ben.  "Why don't you take him to see his mum while I'm here please!"

[melbender]

If she thought i was going to leave her then she could think again. "No. We'll go afterwards when youre out of here" i told her watching Ben playing with my phone.

[Ashwag24]

I sighed "but it will be late then, and I don't know what if her sister and parents are still there?"  I was worried and my heart monitor started to beep showing hat I was worried the nurse came in and shook her head.  "You need to try to stay calm or we will need to keep you over night!@. I nodded and looked at Tom.

[melbender]

I narrowed my eyes on on her "yes. You need to stop trying to make me do something when clearly in not gping to do it" i told her.

[Ashwag24]

I glared at him.  "I'm sorry I'm just trying to think of Ben and his needs too!  I'm good here!"  I was getting upset with his mucho-ness.

[melbender]

"Well as you can see ben is happy." I told her with a smile. "Just try rekax ok. Otherwise you could end up in here longer, just focus on keeping you and our child safe."

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head and closed my eyes if he wasn't going to listen then I would just try to sleep.  As my eyes drifted I heard Ben.  "Is mummy and the baby okay? Can we go now?"

[melbender]

"Mummy and the baby need to stay a little longer to mane sure they're both ok before we leave ok" i smiled taking my phone and getting him back into the dinosaur game for him. "Why don't we go get some chips while mummy gets some rest"

[Ashwag24]

I felt terrible.  I stayed the way I was till they left.  

"Daddy why is mummy pretending?"

[melbender]

I sighed "i dont know. She wants us to be haooy but she had to realise that her being ok makes me hsooy and you, well i lnow you're sad about leaving your mummy today but we can go back whenever you want." I felt terrible.

[Ashwag24]

Ben sighed.  "I want mummy to be happy too, I don't want her to be here.  Is mummy not happy that I wanted to stay with my other mummy?"

[melbender]

I thought about it. I didnt consider that but maybe she was upset about that. "I don't know buddy, lets grab mummy something to eat too" i suggested trying to get his questions to stop as i picked up a bag of candy

[Ashwag24]

I laid there crying silently till I heard the door open I then rolled over and just listened to the constant heartbeat of the baby.

[melbender]

"Hey so we grabbed you a bag of lollies.. ben and.." i stopped talking when i noticed her tear streaked cheeks "baby whats wrong?"

[Ashwag24]

I looked at them.  "Nothing, I don't know I'm just so emotional.  I feel bad and then I cry."  I said looking at Ben.  "Thank you for the lollies I really needed them."

[melbender]

"I dont like seeing you cry' i said softly and kissed her forehead. "The baby is going tk be ok, i cant wait to take you home and organize our wedding. Id take you to Vegas if you were willing" i chuckled

[Ashwag24]

I smiled.  "I would go if that's what Ben wants.  I just want our babies to be happy and okay."  I felt like shit.  "I wish you would take him to see her I really do...we are fine and the doctor said I shouldn't put myself in stresses way and if I go back and they are still there that would be exactly what I'm doing.  Plus I have no right in going just the right to be there for Ben when he needs me after."  I said sniffling.

[melbender]

I shook my head "youre wrong. You know, and i need you there for me." I said quietly and stood up needing a moment to myself outside.

[Ashwag24]

Oh great I upset him now.  I just couldn't do anything right damn emotions.  My monitor started to beep and a nurse came flying in.  "I think we are going to give you something to relax it won't hurt the baby but you need to relax." She said.

[melbender]

I come back after a while as nurses walked out. "Did they give you your discharge paperwork?" I asked sitting by her side "is everything ok?"

[Ashwag24]

I was tired now.  "No they gave me more medicine to calm down.  My blood pressure was rising."  I said sadly I knew I needed to settle and I needed to just stop talking before I made things worse.  "I'm sorry."

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