first everything but that!

[Ashwag24]

She was my first kiss!
First make out!
First girl I’ve seen naked!
First well not that because of that night!

She should have been my first everything but they took that from us, from her. We had it set up her 16th birthday right befor emy 17th birthday, we were going to take it all the way!  We both wanted it, we were both ready.  But my mind being as sick as it is I had to tie her hands and just as I was going to pull out my cock, I got hit in the head and when I woke I hated what I saw. She couldn’t escape because I tied her hands.  I won’t blame her if she doesn’t forgive me.  After I got loose I killed one of the men but the other got away.

Her parents took her 4 days after the policed questioned her and they never looked back I never got to say good bye.  So what happens when I see her 10 years later.

[melbender]

NAME: LILY WILSON
AGE: 26
BIO: Still sleeps with a lamp on. Has night terrors. Still lives at home afraid to be out in the night. Had a job but quit it due to fear or strangers. She keeps to herself.

[Ashwag24]

Name Carson Smith
Age 27
Bio hard working still thinks about her, hasn’t wanted any other woman. Keeps to himself except he talks to his brother and his best mate. All who know the truth of what happened that he killed someone.
Looks will send

[melbender]

I run daily, it keeps me focused and distracted. It’s the only time I ever leave the house. We moved back to town last month and I really haven’t done anywhere. I don’t want to. You’d think the nightmares would stop but they don’t. I’m in therapy twice a week and it isn’t helping me. They told me to forget about Carson. Yay he done this and it was a set up but they don’t understand it wasn’t like that. I loved him. My parents say love shouldn’t come with wrist ties. I was running so hard that I didn’t look, and I smacked into a bodyX being sent to the ground on my ass with a thump “ouch!!” I winced groaning and then I froze

[Ashwag24]

I was lost in thought and song as I turned the corner in jog as someone ran straight into me. “Oh god I’m so sorry I wasn’t really paying attention.” I said as I went to offer a hand I took her in and when I saw her face my heart skipped. It couldn’t be her there is no way. I haven’t seen her in 10 years. “Lily?” Her name left my lips as I stared in shock. She was back. God I missed her she was my best friend and I hated what happened to her. I loved her still do but I’m sure she hates me I didn’t protect her, I had to watch them do horrible things to her.

[melbender]

“Carson.” I was still on my ass staring up at him. “Oh my god. I didn’t think you lived here anymore.” That’s the only reason we came back. He had changed, no more was he just cute and lanky, he was hot as hell. “The years have been good to you I see.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled and helped her up.  I was a little shy as she said this.  “Ugh thanks, when did you move back?” I looked her up and down “I didn’t hurt you did I I mean when you fell your Okay?” I panicked god that’s all I need is to hurt her within the first second she came back into my life. Fuck I’m a idiot.

[melbender]

“No I’m ok, I mean my ass hurts but I’m ok.” I smiled shyly, looking at him. “We moved back last month, my parents came back when their house sold.” I pulled my sleeves down and glanced around “so umm, how are you?”

[Ashwag24]

She still wasn’t the same girl I remembered she was scared and on edge now. Sighing. “I guess I’ve been okay I just go on every day do my work and that’s it.” I still worry about you and you’re always on my mind is what I should have said but I couldn’t I have no right. “How about you how are you doing?”

[melbender]

“Yeah so so, nothing too exciting happening for me. I just work from home, nothing much really.” I but my lip and ran a hand through my hair “where are you working?”

[Ashwag24]

Smiling. “My brother, John and I own Rusty’s the mechanic shop in town.” It’s what I always wanted I loved cars and working on them. “It’s been good there, pretty much the only good thing in my life.” I sighed. I looked her up and down. “You’re stunning lily! I bet your boyfriend or husband is happy!” Yes it’s my way of asking if she is single but fucking hell she is beautiful.

[melbender]

“What? No!” I nervously laughed “as if! I’m not seeing. I mean I you know, I haven’t.” There was no way. I didn’t trust anyone anymore, not even my friends and I spoke. “So, I bet some girl had tied you down and gotten some kids out of you.” It had always made me sick to think someone else got the first with him.

[Ashwag24]

Laughing. “Hell no, girls aren’t in my radar lily. My business is my life. You know me I’m the brains and muscle to keep it going.” We stood there and stared a while at one another. “Um you want to go grab breakfast or coffee?”

[melbender]

“Umm I don’t know.” I hadn’t really been out anywhere without my mum. “I don’t have my wallet.” I stupidly said patting down my clothes “so I kind of can’t.”

[Ashwag24]

I shook my head not liking her comment that she hasn’t gone anywhere without her mum. “Lily your out now without her, and I’ll pay.” I don’t mind it’s not like I’m hurting in that department. “It’s been 10 years please lily!”

[melbender]

“Fine but then I have to go back home.” I know I sounded pathetic, because I felt pathetic “just somewhere quiet. I’ll have a coffee and pancakes.”

[Ashwag24]

I smiled “some things don’t change still have a love for pancakes.” We started to walk. Making small talk as we got to the small diner I opened the door and took her back to the corner where it was just us. After the waitress left I looked at her. “I never got to talk to you after the police came. I’m so fucking sorry lily, I blame myself I should have never tied your hands you would have been able to get away. I’m so sorry.” God I thought about it all the time I hated myself.

[melbender]

“I don’t want to talk about that.” I couldn’t bring myself to look at him “How is your parents? And your brother?” I asked, I had to change the subject before I went into a panic attack.

[Ashwag24]

I sighed. “My parents left when they could they don’t talk to me they call me a murderer. My brother is good he and John have been my rocks.” I reached across the table to her hand. “Lily, I tried to contact you but every time they told me you didn’t want to talk to me.”

[melbender]

I flinched as he touched me, not used to the contact “sorry. I just-“ I looked out the window “things have been tough. I don’t know how to be alone and my parents never told me you called or anything, they don’t like you. They’d be furious knowing we was here together now.”

[Ashwag24]

I looked at her. “They have every reason to hate me as do you.” I pulled my Hand away and just looked at her. “It’s good seeing you and knowing your okay.” Well okay is a understatement. She looked good but she was far from okay. “I’m sure my brother would want to see you. You should come by the shop some time.”

[melbender]

“Maybe.” I didn’t go anywhere, so locked in the house scared someone would attack me again. My parents told me I’m an easy target and to always stay home. “I guess I could drive there one day if you’re working.” I agreed as our food was brought over. I smiled at mine “I think you’ll have to help finish these like usual. Unless you don’t eat carbs now you’re all muscled up.”

[Ashwag24]

Laughing I picked up the fork and dig in. “I work hard for all this muscle lily!” I took a big bite an dgroaned it was so good but I haven’t ate pancakes since she left. “So good!” I winked.

[melbender]

I rolled my eyes grinning “still the same I see.” And I took some of his bacon and winked. It felt like we’d never been apart. “So what else is new with you?”

[Ashwag24]

I shrugged. “Nothing really, I don’t go out, I work and then go home and work some more, I keep my mind on work.” I looked at her and gave a small smile. “I finished school and then took some college courses to help the business but that’s all.” I took a bite and groaned again. “Seriously these are so good.”

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